lydibug's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- confusion YAY! I have my friends back! I had to finally say fuckit, stop letting people decide what was appropriate for me and/or right for Danny, make a phone call, shed a few tears, stand up for myself, be honest, and get my friends back. I went to the Firme show last night and saw everyone and felt so happy. Like I had been reunited with my family that I hadn't been allowed to see for the past 2-3 months because I didn't want to step on Danny's toes. He and I went out and had a nice long talk till about 5 in the morning. A lot was said. A lot was resolved. I feel like we (mostly) closed the door on the past and realized that we definately want to be part of eachother's futures. He really is a great guy witha heart the size of Texas. I wish him nothing but the best. The best, however, is not a girl named Erika. I guess I'm still doing the jealous overprotective thing. Anyway, it's a really long story. My feelings got hurt and I called Danny for comfort and thats exactly what he knows how to do. I feel like I have my best friend back. Is this considered having your cake and eating it too? I hope it doesn't all blow up in my face. Things are strange in my head and in my heart. 12:02 pm - Thursday, Sept. 11, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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