lydibug's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I feel crummy. This is really hard. It's mostly hard trying to distance yourself from what you know is a closing chapter in your life. Encouragement comes when I get to glance ahead at the next chapter, but it still really hurts. He's my best friend. And he's got such a big heart and a warm smile. I really don't want to hurt him. I have to turn myself off when I'm around him so as not to hurt myself in the process. But don't be mistaken. It hurts me too. A lot. I hope theres a light at the end of the tunnel that he and I share. I hope he wants to stay in my life. I hope it doesn't hurt too badly to see me. I wish I didn't have to do this. But I know I do. It's time. It's been time. I've had an itch for some time. But still. It's shitty. And hurtful. All the way around. Life will go on. 9:25 pm - Wednesday, Jun. 04, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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